Heartbreak.

Hello beautiful people

I come to you with this blog post in a very gutted and heartbroken state.

I've vaguely touched on this topic in a few blogs.

But my Boys. post touches on it the most.

I have just had my hear shattered for the fifth time (I think) in the past four months by the same guy. You can call me pathetic, but all I will do is flip my hair at you. I'm aware that I could've walked away many times, but part of me was still hanging on and hoping for the best. Tonight is the night that I realized I can't hold on anymore. This boy was controlling my happiness and influenced every aspect of my life. I tried to be the girl he'd like. I was willing to change my perspective. I was willing to do so much for him when he wasn't willing to return the favour.

It sucks when you care so much about a person and you want them to care about you. But in reality they don't give two shits

All of my friends and my mom and brother didn't like how he was treating me, but I was so quick to defend him. I would blame myself before I would blame him and that's not like me at all. I am the sassiest girl there is and for me to tame down that sass means a lot. I fell for him so hard and everything unfolded so quickly, my stomach felt like I was going down the first hill on the Behemoth at Canada's Wonderland over and over again. For the longest time I wish I could undo meeting him, but now I'm strangely thankful for the heart break he's putting me through. Thanks to my chummy, I realize that this is a learning experience and I've already learned so much.

Don't care about people, who don't care about you

I'm spending the next couple of days doing things that I enjoy and being with people that make me happy.  I'm hoping this will help me pull myself together because the second I can do that I am holding my head high and walking right out of that guys life. He's going to see what he missed out on and when he realizes it, I won't care because I'm going to be happy doing my own thing on my own terms. I let him control my feelings and this will never happen again. I determine my happiness and when I get over this bump in the road, I will be so happy. I will be stronger because this made me stronger.

I'm going to look back on this and thank him for teaching me many things. Majority of me is very upset and hurt. I'm so mad at him and I don't ever want him to be happy. But there's still that part of me that is pulling me through this. I will get through this. My New Years Resolution is working on my strength and this is the perfect time to push myself. Yes, it'll be hard to just walk away because I care about him so much. But I'm sick and tired for doing so much for someone who can brush me off so quickly. 

I've cried it out, I'm screamed and I've ranted. I have my chummy and my boys who are helping me through this. But I know this will be good for me because I'm already feeling so much better. Everything's going to change and I will make sure of it. This will be the last time I dwell on this situation and most definitely the last time I cry about this douche bag. It sucks that this is going down on the first day of 2014, but maybe it's a good thing. We'll see...

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx

The End of 2013

Hello beautiful people! 

Holy cow, this feels very weird.

I can't remember the last time I blogged and how much I missed it.

I know I said I would be back on the Christmas break and I kinda lied...oops.

However, I am back and if time allows me today you will see me later on!

So 2013 is ending and I am ready to welcome 2014!

Was 2013 an amazing year for me?

It had its moments. 

It was filled with many amazing memories but also a few struggles and hardships that I've had to work through and still am working through.

I'm grateful for all the memories that I've made with the amazing people in my life, but I am equally grateful for all the tough times.

I've decided to celebrate 2013 by sharing with you some of my favourite times throughout the past year.

By far the best thing that has happened to me this year is finding the bestest best friend there is.

You've heard about her before.

She's my favourite chummy, Madison.

I've known her for quite some time, but we've become so close within the best year.

I've been able to share every great and bad moment with her and I know that she'll always be there for me. 

She has the most positive and beautiful personality and it's very contagious. 

It's nice knowing that I have someone who understands everything that I'm feeling and knows how to make me feel better. She helps me work through problems and really helps me become a better person. 

I can't express how grateful I am to have her as a best friend.

I'm so excited for the many memories we'll be making this year.

I love her to the moon and back <3

love you chummy xx

The highlight of my year is definitely July 10th 2013!

(No Stephanie not because it's your birthday, you weirdo)

On July 10th, my best friend, our friend Emily and Stephanie's sister went to see One Direction in concert for our first time.

The day was just beautiful because we were also celebrating Stephanie's 19th birthday.

My love for the boys definitely grew after the TMH tour.

They truly showed how talented they are and how much they love their fans.

It's a night that I can't forget and I'm so happy I got to experience it with such amazing people!

This next memory might be a little strange, haha!

Getting my job at Harvey's...weird I know.

It was a job that I got out of desperation for money and one that no one thought I would last at.

Ha, I proved everyone wrong because I am still here!

The job isn't the most glamorous one, but it's one where I've met great people.

This job has given me a different perspective of working because all of high school I've been working at a dance studio.

I absolutely love the friendly environment that we have with the customers and each other.

Yes, there have been times where I've wanted to quit or I've had a meltdown.

But I've gotten through them because of three amazing guys that I've met there.

They have no idea that I have a blog, but I'm still going to thank them.

I have the best relationship with all 3 of them and I love working with them because they never fail to put a smile on my face.

So thank you guys <3

2013 has definitely been an experience.

One that has helped me grow as a person and know who is there when I need them.

To all the times where I've felt depressed and sad, I don't regret feeling like that because it's definitely help me become a better person.

To the boy that just shattered my heart- it sucks and I'm still getting over it. But thank you for making me realize many things about the male population and about myself.

For 2014 the only New Years resolution I will be setting is:

I want to work on my strength. Mentally I need to be a stronger person and I can't keep taking things so personally.

I'm ready to see what 2014 has in store for me.

I'm excited to be attending three concerts with my chummy.

We'll be seeing Demi and Fifth Harmony in March, Lady Gaga in June and One direction in August with Stephanie.

Whatever happens in this upcoming year, I will share with you here and I will tackle everything with positivity. 

That's all for now!

Thank you to everyone who has made my year special.

I hope you all have a fabulous New Years Eve.

Be safe if you're drinking :)

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx

Thanksgiving OOTD

Hello beautiful people!

It is me :)

It's been a long time, but I am back and ready to blog!

I apologize, I've been stuck in a slump the past few weeks and I'm not going into detail about it now, but there will be a blog post on it at the end of the month.

However, I am out of the slump and ready to attack!

Shoutout to my chummy, Madison (Glitter and Gold) for helping me during the crappy times.

Anyways, here in Canada we had Thanksgiving last weekend.

I worked every day, but I managed to have my Turkey meal Monday afternoon before I had to go into work.

I wanted to share with you my face for the day and what I put on my body

:)

 Ouuu Make-up!
Foundation: Bare Minerals Pressed Foundation
Concealer: Rimmel's Wake Me Up
 

Eyebrows: MAC Mystery Satin with Mylar has a brow highlight.

Eyeshadow: NYX Jumbo Eye Pencil in Strawberry Milk. I used this has a base.

Then I used my old dance quad by Mark. I used a shimmery gold over top of the pink.

Then in the outer corner of my eyes I used the copper shimmery colour.

Eyeliner: Stila's Waterproof Liquid eyeliner
Mascara: Benefit They're Real 

Bronzer: Too Faced Chocolate Soleil
Blush: Gosh's Flower Power

Lip Liner: MAC Currant

Lip Stick: MAC Rebel

OUU Casual selfies in the leaves!

Shirt: Love Culture
Disco Pants: Urban Planet
Doc Martin's: Globo

That is all my friends :)

I have one more exciting announcement!

I officially have my own YouTube Channel, Pinky Party!

Pinky Party

Click on the link and subcribe :)

I would love it very much!

I will be filming solo videos next week and I should have a video up by the end of October!

Let me know in the comments below if you would like me to film the make-up look that I did!

Also, if you live in Canada, how was your thanksgiving?

I'll see you guys soon

Lots of Love

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx

Birthday! :)

Hello beautiful people!

Yesterday was my 19th birthday and here in Ontario, it means that I am finally legal!

Woot, woot!

I just wanted to share with you a few pictures from my birthday dinner with my family!

 I started off the day with a Birthday selfie!

Haha

I couldn't resist!

I woke up in a great mood, I mean c'mon I was finally 19!

 At dinner, I enjoyed a nice peach Bellini at Milestones!

Man this tasted so good!

I couldn't taste the alcohol and I definitely wouldn't mind drinking this all night!

& look at that cute little green monkey hanging out!

I'm just enjoying my drink!

 The best part of my birthday was definitely having my mom home!

She's been gone for 2 weeks visiting her mom and she made it back in time for my birthday!

Yes...I know we look like sisters!

It gets to my mom's head hehe

 Our appetizers!

The cesear salad and spinach dip was delicious!

My main meal!

A little birthday surprise for me

 This dessert is so simple, but it tasted like heaven!

It was cookies with vanilla ice cream!

But the cookies were so moist and chewy and chocolate...

ooo, my mouth is watering just talking about it!

Here is my birthday outfit!

Dress: Topshop
Wristlet: Coach

Shoes: Payless

Overall, my day was pretty great!

Nothing, huge but it was nice :)

I just wish I was in a better mood, I was in a slump and I have no idea why!

But the big event is coming Friday!

I'm going out for dinner with my friends and then we're going out!

I will make sure to take lots of pictures so I can share them with you all!

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx

Boys.

Hello beautiful people!

Today's post isn't necessarily a good one. It's going to be a nice, very much needed rant. It might be lengthy, so I apologize. I just have a lot of things that need to be said and they need to be said now. Hopefully, many of you beautiful people can relate to this or understand where this is all coming from. Well, at least I hope.

Let me start by saying: "BOYS SUCK." Wow, I already feel a lot better. I have no idea why guys think that us, girls are confusing because guys are worse. They have so much control and they know it. They are aware of the impact they have on girls and they use it to their advantage. They purposely make us fall for them and they friend zone us so quickly, we don't even see it coming. It makes me wonder if they really care about our feelings at all. Do they find this amusing? When we are texting them, are they laughing on the other end?

I cannot stand when guys make you feel special and give you all of this attention, but then you aren't 100% sure if you're the only girl they are talking to. You never know when they are talking out of their asses or they really mean it. But you're too afraid to ask because you don't want to push them away or have them think you are crazy. Well screw that! Boys think with their dicks and they like to keep their "options" open...wtf? Pardon me? Last time I checked we aren't things, we are people who will not stand to be treated like options. We will be a guy's first choice and only his first choice. If he's thinking about all the girls in his life, then you will turn away and strut farther and farther away from him. He'll figure out what he missed out on and he'll realize how much of an idiot he is.

The double standard absolutely kills me. It's okay for him to talk to other girls and have a blast with them, but the moment you talk to one other guy he isn't not happy at all. WHY IS HE ALLOWED TO BE UPSET AND YOU AREN'T?! Ladies, you have every single right to be upset, if he gets upset. Don't let him decide whom you can or can't talk to. If you don't care that he's talking to other girls, then he shouldn't either.

I can't even get started with how hard they are to read. They put up a shield, so you can't know what they're really thinking or how they feel. I don't know about you, but it makes me feel really vulnerable because I'm such an open book; whether or not I want to be. I have the problem of wanting to tell a guy how I really feel, but I am so scared to see his reaction. I don't have a lot of confidence as it is, so being rejected doesn't really help with that at all. They are so good at making sure you can't figure out if they have feelings for you and it drives me insane! The longer you sit there waiting patiently for that shield to come down, the more your feelings will disappear. 

Okay, I'm finished. Sorry about that beautiful people! I'm just a big ball of emotions right now and I wasn't having a good night last night. I feel a lot better. Thank you all for reading along! Leave a comment below and let me know if you can relate to this rant.

I'll see all you beautiful people soon :)

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx

My Sincere Apologies :)

Hello beautiful people!

It has been weeks since I've been on here and I am so sorry!

School has started up again and I told myself that I wouldn't neglect my blog, but it looks like I am!

:(

I have tried multiple times to try and blog, but every time I wasn't in love with what I wrote.

I put a lot of time and effort into each and every post and I don't want to share with you posts that I'm not happy with.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I'm having writer's block right now!

It's the worse feeling and it really frustrates me.

I have a lot of things going on right now and it's always consuming my mind.

I'm hoping that once I can clear my mind up, I'll have room to write great posts for you guys again!

I'm in the process of organizing everything!

So along with organizing my school and work duties, I will be coming up with a blogging schedule for myself!

I will not let myself forget about this blog during the year.

I will have to take a break around midterms and finals, but that will be the only time. 

I hope to further improve my blog by coming up with cool posts and possibly changing up the structure!

I have things running in my mind, I just have to perfect them!

So I apologize for my absence, but I will be back very shortly!

While you are all waiting, there is a new video on my joint YouTube Channel with my best friend Stephanie!

We filmed our August Favourites :)

Come and check it out, if you're interested to see our favourite beauty and fashion favourite, along with our favourite person, food and song of the month :)

Thanks for tuning in lovelies!

Leave a comment below and let me know what you would like to see from me!

I will definitely read through all of the suggestions!

Feel free to contact me on my personal twitter- which is linked in my "Follow Me" page!

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx

Pretty Little Liars #3: Spencer Hastings

Hello beautiful people :)

So tonight is the night!

Tonight is the Summer Finale for PLL!

Unfortunately, I work and I'm unable to watch it!

But I guess it's good because I'm a little behind, so I have to catch up!

Since today is the finale, I couldn't not do another episode!

So today we look into Spencer Hastings' closet!

As the seasons have progressed, I have become more fond of Spencer's outfits.

It may be because my fashion sense has changed, but I am definitely a bigger fan of her clothes than I was during Season 1.

This outfit is definitely toned down, compared to her usual outfits. 

But I love this simple look on Spencer.

Up close, the white sweater may look a little tacky but from a distance I love it!

The large dip of the little people adds beautiful detail to the neckline of this sweater.

The brown elbow patches add an imperfect look.

It gives the sweater a cozier feel.

The warm colours tone down the white fabric.

The jeans help make it look casual and I am in love with her oxford shoes!

It's a little touch of Spencer Hastings!

Since the outfit is so simple and casual, the oxford shoes are very much Hasting-esuqe! 

Here's Western Spencer!

Hehe!

She is rocking the denim on denim!

I love shirts with cut out shoulders.

(I am currently wearing one as I type this)

You're showing a bit a skin without looking trashy!

It's like a classy sexy!

Haha!

The cut out shoulders with the rolled up sleeves has a very relaxed looked.

The black denim pants are worn with a large buckle belt, which in my opinion is the reason why this looks very western!

 Here is our classic Spencer!

Looking very professional.

It's clear in the show that Spencer is very hardworking and very academic.

So it makes sense that her style matches that.

The violet button up top paired with the brown blazer gives a very academic look.

I like how she has her collar tucked underneath her blazer and her shirt is rolled over top of the blazer's sleeves.

To keep this outfit appropriate for someone who is still in high school, wearing jeans rolled at the ankle tones it down.

It's not as professional as it would be with dress pants. 

Here she is again rocking her brown oxfords.

What I think is so great about this outfit is that it looks comfortable whilst giving off an academic, business-like vibe.

This floor length dress looks absolutely gorgeous on Spencer.

Spencer's tiny body is usually hiding underneath all of her clothes, but this dress shows off her beautiful figure!

This peach colour dress is very flattering against Spencer's fair skin.

The beige belt, wraps around Spencer showing off her tiny body.

The combination of the belt and the length of the dress really compliments Spencer's tiny and long frame!

Since the dress is very simple, Spencer's stylist adds very minimal accessories.

Besides a watch and a bracelet, she has a long very simple necklace around her neck.

With her loose curls, Spencer looks perfect for a Summer's day!

Four very different looks from the Hastings' closet!

Leave a comment below and let me know which outfit of Spencer's is your favourite!

I do not know when the final episode of the PLL fashion series will be up!

But it will be posted before next Tuesday!

I will leave you now with Spencer's preppy style!

I hope you enjoyed it!

Hugs and Butterfly Kisses

xx